难道我真的要放弃吗？

From one of my good friend on MSN, he said this lyrics really suit my current feeling:

听不清 喝彩声音 只有你的眼泪像海浪回荡在我心底
看身边 茫茫人群 究竟谁对我还有意义
一直不能忘记 我的勇气曾失落在这里裡
如今我找回自己 却又失去最深爱的你 在风中远离
我绝不放弃 永远爱你 时间 空间 挡不住不灭的情谊
你值得我用一生追寻 Woo
我绝不放弃 永远爱你 现实命运推不动思念的坚定
你是我最依赖的抚慰 我绝不放棄

He said i don't have to know from which singer, the important is to know and understand the meaning. It's suited me so well, for now!

y2k, can you tell me how am i suppose to do? To give up on you or be patient and give you more time and chances???I am lost! I am not happy because of you. You have made myself so miserable, so lost. Should i wait? I gave many chances and i tried to be patient to you but what i got from return is nothing. You have hurt me but you don't know. This whole week, i just keep myself busy with my work so i don't have time to think of you. But i actually not happy. Do you know? I know you were there when i chat with Pinky. You just sat next to her playing Dota games. I know i was you, used chicken little's msn account to go on msn. I sent a message to you and you just ignored it. Why? Am i a scary person? Am i annoy you? Are you trying to avoid me? Why you want to do this to me? It's just hurt, like ChristinaAguilera-Hurt:

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face.

You told me how proud you were but I walked away.

If I only I knew what I know today, ohhhh.

I would hold you in my arms.

I would take the pain away.

Thank you for all you've done.

Forgive all your mistakes.

There's nothing I wouldn't do.

To hear your voice again.

Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you.

For everything I just couldn't do.

And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

Some days I feel broke inside, but I won't admit.

Sometimes I just wanna hide cuz it's you I miss.

You know it's so hard to say good-bye when it comes to this, ohhhh yeah.

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do.

To have just one more chance.

To look into your eyes and see you looking back.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you.

For everything I just couldn't do.

And I've hurt myself, oh...

If I had just one more day.

I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away.

Oh, It's dangerous.

It's so out of line to try and turn back time.

I'm sorry for blaming you.

For everything I just couldn't do.

And I've hurt myself....by hurting you.

This is the last sentence LH typed in MSN for tonight's chat:

早一点脱离悲伤的那个人,
才能够早一点认清,

不管遇到了什么关卡,

人最不能放弃的,

不是那个已不再爱你的他/她......

Thanks LH, thanks for being my good listener & adviser. Thanks for everything.

我终于那用中文Blog 了！

我总算可以用MSN些BLOG了！Finally i can! 一直以来我都很想用中文打部落格，现在终于实现了！开始使用真的有点慢，但是还好。：）今天晚上我真的很高兴，非常的高兴！YadaYada!

At Last Im in the Mood

Finally i am in the mood of writing. Thank God, I have the mood now! I was at home yesterday. I typed about 8 pages. Is not easy to start but once it started, then you memang have the semangat to carry on. Sms and phone calls coming in also i don't feel like "layan". That is me, when i am really into something (busy with something) i memang don't care for the surrounded response. Hahaha....I am like that one! today add anothr 3 pages. Good, at least i have a good start and a good progress! Norahs, you should keep it up! Tomorrow again i am not going to uni, boss is in KK and she only will be backrthis Sunday. So as usual i "curi tulang" lor, not exactly "curi tulang" lar. Just that i can't do my writing in uni and i prefer to do the writing at home. All my papers and informations are at home. House in my room is always the most comfortable place to do my stuff. :)

He really dunno ......

I just found out that he don't know my birthday! Through MSN. I have been waiting and waiting for him to call or message me. But he didn't, not because he forgot but he didn't know about it.

Beanie Baer born on 1st March (Part 3)

This is another beanie shared the same birthday date with me. His name is Minneapolis the Bear. The poem is like this:

Come to Minneapolis you'll want to stay

Such beautiful nature on display

Museums, theaters and music, too

The City of Lakes invites you !

Beanie Bear Born on 1st March (Part 2) My favourite

Ewey the Lamb. This is my favourite. It also has a poem:

Needles and yarn, Ewey loves to knit

Making sweaters with perfect fit

Happy to make one for you and me

Showing off hers, for all to see!

Beanie Bear born on 1st March (Part 1)

Hello. My name is Daffodil the Bear from Ty Beanie Babies family.

This bear shared the same birthday date with me and it has a poem like this:

You will find me on the hills

Gathering up daffodils

I will sing my country's song

Every day and all night long!

Tian Hou Temple, KL

This are some photos i took during my visit to Tian Hou Temple with my family during Chinese New Year.

[Last]

[ Last ] letter of ur name?
** s

[ Last ] thing you ate?
** yong tau fu

[ Last ] thing u drank?
** water

[ Last ] song you listened to?
** My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

[ Last ] movie you watched?
** Death Note 2 - The Last Name

[ Last ] TV show you watched?
** Astro Channel 30 Hong kong drama

[ Last ] time you cleaned your room?
** this noon

[ Last ] CD/Cassette you bought?
** few years ago

[ Last ] travel?
** Seksyen 14

[ Last ] time you cried?
** 3 months ago

[ Last ] person who you chatted online
** UM Beyonce

[ Last ] website you browsed?
** District 3300 official website

[ Last ] time you shopped?
** last weekend

[ Last ] person you hangout with?
** cf & Tracy

[ Last ] person u were thinking of?
** yyk

[ Last ] time u felt sick?
** can't really remember

[ Last ] person u chatted on the phone
** brother

[ Last ] place you went to?
** Secret recipe @ Seksyen 14

Fake Friends

I am sure all of us have fake friends around us. We have met them since we were young and i am sure until we are getting old, still have these friend around.

I copied this from my Friendster:

No offence but... people aregettingtoo fake in here. They only want piccomments, testimonials or to see howmany friends they can get. So let'ssee who will actually repost this.This is a test to see how many peoplein my friends list are payingattention to me. Copy and repost inyour own bulletin if you are a friendand don't reply. Just copy and pastethis in a new bulletin with thesubject "Fake Friends"

Si Benci

Si Benci! Why you said our we think "CHEAP"?
Why you never appreciate our hardwork?
We just don't like the way you do things!
You said you'll do but you didn't!
People offer to help, you turned it down.
But when you couldn't do, you just throw it back to us.
How could you do this???
We are in a team, we are working together!
but you never treat us as your collegue.
When we are not talk about work, just hanging out or doing shopping, you are oK!
Perhaps a sweet person!
But when it come to work, you are totally different!
I am respect you as a leader in our team, i hope you do respect us as your teammates! k!

I'm on leave

Why?
Am i sick?
Nope! Just want to stay at home doing my work!
What work? Data analysis.
*sigh* I have been spending the whole afternoon doing that but the progress was so slow. Outcome was so little.
I started to worry, worry about my work, my write-up.
The afternoon was so hot & i was feeling so sleepy. But i couldn't sleep, must stay awake at least to complete some part of my data!
Norahs, wake up!

He forgotten my birthday

I am very upsad & disappointed that he has forgotten my birthday. No sms or call from him. I know you were on your way back from Phuket but you were back in KL before 12 midnight. I know you have plenty of time. Why? why you want to treat me like that? Everyone has sent and you didn. I really sad, you know?

What make things worst was i met you yesterday & you just said "hi" & that's it! I met you online today, i were chatting with you asked about your CNY and just simply layan me. Why? Why you want to do this to me? LH has advised me to give up on you and same to my sis & JLow. I took an effort to keep in touch with you by sending you messages but what i got returned was just some "layan" messages.

I am hurt! I do really hurt by you! yyk, do you know? I don't have the courage to tell you how i feel. I am afraid might loose you as a friend. But what you are doing is just worse than a friend. I really don't know. I do miss you very much and i can't tell you all these. I only can write in my blog. This is what i can do for now! God, please help me!

y2k is online

Yes, he is online! Did you see me online too? Why don't you say "hi" to me? Tak nampak ku kah? Should i start the conversation with him? Should i?

What a Bring Afternoon???

Just gave him called and want to ajak him out for yam cha. But he didn't answer. I guess.........maybe he is avoiding me by not answering call or maybe he is in gym. Don't care lar. I just calld once and then lay on my bed and wanted to take a noon nap. About an hour later, he replied my call. But the yam cha still not on cuz he got something to wor. He did explain why he didn't answer my call just now. He was in the gym. Ok, at least he is not avoiding me! :) I think i still have chance! AGAIN WHAT A BORING AFTERNOON!

On the MSN messenger for an hour but none on my list is online! Where are these ppl???

AGAIN WHAT A BORING AFTERNOON!

I still owe my lecturer the Dec Monthly report..............no mood to do. Don't know what to write.....can anyone help me arr???

Photos

Just before year 2006 end, I went to Bangkok. Took a lots of photos and here are some of them



This is the night market i went and did some shopping there

View from the night market

Day view from my room

Sun rise from my room

This is the hotel i stay!

I am back to Blog

Welcome 2007!

I am still the same. Still a struggling student. Still have not finish my research, haven't write up my thesis and still stay single! My 2007 resolutions are:
1.) Get my research done in January latest by February, then really have to start write up my thesis. Submitt it before May and hope can convo in this year! A must do!

2.) Get a job! Must get a job! Cannot menganggur at home. While writting up need to get a part time job. I need money! My little car also need to "drink" petrol mar!

3.) Out from SINGLE group! Really really hope can get a boyfriend this year! It is my resolution for the past 5 years. I really hope this will come true before 2008! Have single for 5 years! Can you believe? 5 years! How arr? Have been lonely for that long man!

4.) My family & friends all stay healthy and happy!

5.) World peace! I really hope for World Peace!


Cheers,
Norahs

I am still alive!

Long time never go on blogging........4 months plus. I am just busy and lazy to blog. Got a lots of pics want to upload but all are in my hp. Sis just took my camera phone 2 days ago and will return to me tomorrow. See lar, if i have time and the internet connection is good then i will post them on. Kalau tak, then have to wait lor. :)

Got the Samples

I woke up early this morning, cuz i have few things to do before going to fetch my boss and then to collect the samples. From house, i went to Old Town Esso petro station to pump in petrol. I like to go there cuz have the worker help me to pump the petrol and i dun have to do it myself! :) Yes, i am a bit lazy and the main reason is the petrol cap on my car is really tight and always have the problems to open it. When my car petrol going to finish, dad will drive my car to petrol station and pump in for me. Now he is busy and i have to go to pump in the petrol by myself. After that, i went to office, collect something and then heading to my boss house. I only been to her house once, about a year ago. Not really sure the exact location of her house, i actually make the wrong turning and missed her house. Then i have to drive another long way to turn into the correct "lorong" and then search for her house. I spent about 20 minutes and finally reached there. She was standing at the gate there and waiting for me. She did call on my cell phone but i didn't answer cuz i was driving and at the same time searching for the correct "lorong" to get there. I parked my car in her house and then she drove me to collect the samples.

We reached there on time and we got 4 types of samples. After that, i gooto rushed back to the office and keep the samples well. Then Y sms and we have lunch together. She is really busy these day and i only can meet her once a week for lunch.

Hah! Tomorrow is a public holidays! I am on holidays mood now. I will be meeting JL tomorrow. I think we will be going to Mid Valley!

WK is back to KL last Friday. She called me out for "yam cha" yesterday night. Ended up we "yam cha" at her house cuz her parents were in overseas and we have the whole house for us. Her bf picked me up with his new Myvi. A really nice looking red Myvi. I really like his car. He just got the car like 2 weeks ago and it's still "smell new"! :) We have some chats and because i have to work on Monday, so they sent back home around 11pm. Nice meeting up with WK and Jeff but Z was busy with her coming final exams so she didn't join us. Z, Good luck yah! I want to attend your convo in August! Then we can call you "Dr. Z!" :)

Period Pains

Yesterday i was having a very serious of period pains. I have it almost every month and yesterday's pain was so "teruk". I have to cancelled the outing with JL cuz the pains was so "teruk" until i can't stand up and walk. My sis made me a cup of hot Milo, once i finished drink, i just vomited it out. Luckily i still have some pain killer given by our family doctor. I took one and drink a little bit of water and then just tried to sleep. From my previous experience, when i have this period pain, the best way is to take pain killer and try to sleep. Once you wake up from sleep, the pain already gone. This time was not really work. Cuz it was too pain until i cannot sleep. I just tried my very best to get into sleep. Finally i did. When i woke uip already 4pm and i was feeling much better. Can woke up and take a shower and then have some food.

I really dun like this. Dunno why i have suffer this almost every month. Last time, i have to on medical leave due to this and now i also do that sometimes. JL also having this problems every month but my sis and other friends were ok. I have tried not to eat cold fruits or cold drinks a week before period, took chocolates when it was pained, taking Primrose Oil pills and all also dun work! Can anyone tell me how to escape from this suffering day (1st day of period) pains?